So it finally hit me that I am now living alone. This is my first time being out and on my own and I must say although it is rather liberating, it is also rather lonely. This coming Saturday I venture off to Elle's homecoming. I have not seen her since the last time, as cliche as that sounds. It will have been over a year, and she still praises me as her Edward, despite not knowing the things I have done and seen in that time. Broken promises, additional scars across my forearms and wrists, of these things she cares nothing. It has come to my attention that my ability to manipulate people is rather good. I would not go so far as to say great, but since my self-awareness of such abilities I have made efforts to see just how far I can make someone go in a given aspect. This does complicate things for myself because sooner or later I will get a lie or two tangled up and I will falter. My conscience has even started to get in the way at times, further perplexing things. Yet, I have not lied to Elle and I have no intentions to. On the contrary I have no problem with lying to her friends, thus further propagating that I am this mysterious person that does things which he cannot speak of. In reality it is not the fact that I have ever lied about certain things, but the fact that the other persons use of their imagination to fill in the blanks that causes additional gossip. For instance, a rumor has stirred back and forth that I am a either a "hitman" of sorts or that I am in witness protection... all because I would not tell someone my full name. Neither of those are true, I just did not feel like telling someone my entire name. Witness protectee turned into college student from abroad coming to town solely to visit Elle. The stories people make up via person to person gossip is easily ten times as fun as playing telephone back in kindergarten. I am rather curious as to what my appearance to this shindig will bring. Am I going to get carded and asked to prove my residency? Or will I just check in as per usual and have a good night with that tall,cute, blonde. One thing I have learned since my last encounter with this woman is that I am without a doubt a sucked for tall, cute, blonde women. Ever since Claire I have for some reason or another found women of her body type to be overly attractive.


No more tangents tonight. Work in 3 hours. Nap time.


"I was a superman but looks are deceiving"